Wednesday, May 24, 2006

de-escalated

feeling super fucking sad when i saw my name has been de-escalated by other ppl in his blog.
den im thinking ~ hv i ever been the 1st one?
m i reali dat 失败。。。

time reali flies.
alreadi 2 months le. we alreadi broke up for 2 months le...
wat happened?
y i still feeling the sword stil punctures on my heart?
y i still feeling the bullet is still in my heart?

他说:i can only be a fren, and nothing more...
他说:pls don call me darl anymore. it's making me uncomfortable...
他说:we jus broke up only. i dun think it's good idea for us to meet up so often...

为什么他的每一句话都让我如此痛彻心扉。。。

a fren always by my side helpin me to analyse n thinkin of solution...
a fren said nvr see me like dat b4, keep askin me when i'll be going to totally gv up...

our fren asked him: 一个女生要怎样才可以打动你?
he said: when i like the gal.
so....
it's dat means there's nth i can do?
it's dat means he totally don like me anymore?
it's dat means i shd let go.... but how can be so easy....

i still miss him everyday.
everytime when i see ppl drinkin coffee, he appears in my mind enjoying his favourite latte.
everytime when i see a movie trailer, he comes in my mind wid a big cup of his favourite ice tea enjoying a show in a cinema.
everytime when i see ns-men, he appears in my mind folding his uniform.
everytime when i walk-by Subway, he comes in my mind asking wan to subway?
everytime when i hear a music, he appears in my mind shaking his leg and using his fingers to practise playing drum.
but is there something dat wil make him thinkin of me oso?
how dare i to think so... i m too normal...

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

my dear, could it be he is jus adding on his frens to his blog and does not mean that you have been superceded .. dun think too much and make u more sad ....

* xIaOwEn * said...

gal, i always keep a small piece of hope in heart until now.
but u know... i afraid tis small piece of hope will mislead me further n further.

l_arc_sky said...

Wen, i understand how u feel as i had the same experience before! I hope u will be brave just like him when he is chasing u tat time and get him back again since i can sense tat u really cannot forget him. Don't wait for him to make the move or too long as time go by he may really hav given it up already!Don't let the situation force u to giv him up k,tat is not the wen tat i know :)

Anonymous said...

Long-ge, I nvr wait for him to make the move. In fact, I keep tryin to do a lot of things to get him back. But I tried n tried, I get rejected n rejected. Now I keep chasing after him but I'm afraid oso. I'm scared the more I do the further I chasing him away... U guys r reali v iron-rock-heart. I reali cnt sense whether he stil like me anot. he v clear in mind n nvr get touched no matter wat I did. HELP! SOS!

Anonymous said...

Ger, remember once you told me to perserve on if i think its worth it; so the theory goes the same to you as well. What others tell you is just a guide, what;s important is where your heart is and where its leading you ..

l_arc_sky said...

It is all up to ur heart.Just like mel say it is how much he mean to u!For us guy, if we really like the girl , we will keep chasing her no matter how many times we get rejected as we know if we don't give up,there may be chance tat she will like me.I think now is the time tat u can really see how much u like him.

* xIaOwEn * said...

Long, do u know guys can always get the gal's heart but the gals always failed to do so. Bcos gals always v easy to get touched but u guys r v hard!