心疼他

我知道他最近一直都很忙
他一定很累了
星期天，他回去做DUTY。
然后接下来这整个星期他都得留到很晚。。。
几乎都12点多才回到家。。。

好想帮他做些什么
但是， 他一直把我推开，
我靠近不了他。。。
我可以做什么呢？

de-escalated

feeling super fucking sad when i saw my name has been de-escalated by other ppl in his blog.
den im thinking ~ hv i ever been the 1st one?
m i reali dat 失败。。。

time reali flies.
alreadi 2 months le. we alreadi broke up for 2 months le...
wat happened?
y i still feeling the sword stil punctures on my heart?
y i still feeling the bullet is still in my heart?

他说：i can only be a fren, and nothing more...
他说：pls don call me darl anymore. it's making me uncomfortable...
他说：we jus broke up only. i dun think it's good idea for us to meet up so often...

为什么他的每一句话都让我如此痛彻心扉。。。

a fren always by my side helpin me to analyse n thinkin of solution...
a fren said nvr see me like dat b4, keep askin me when i'll be going to totally gv up...

our fren asked him: 一个女生要怎样才可以打动你？
he said: when i like the gal.
so....
it's dat means there's nth i can do?
it's dat means he totally don like me anymore?
it's dat means i shd let go.... but how can be so easy....

i still miss him everyday.
everytime when i see ppl drinkin coffee, he appears in my mind enjoying his favourite latte.
everytime when i see a movie trailer, he comes in my mind wid a big cup of his favourite ice tea enjoying a show in a cinema.
everytime when i see ns-men, he appears in my mind folding his uniform.
everytime when i walk-by Subway, he comes in my mind asking wan to subway?
everytime when i hear a music, he appears in my mind shaking his leg and using his fingers to practise playing drum.
but is there something dat wil make him thinkin of me oso?
how dare i to think so... i m too normal...

going off to HK

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what about breakfast at tiffany's?

Sunday, September 25, 2005

bummer

woke up early this morning to sent wen off. actually she woke me up instead. apparently my alarm clock rang but i switched it off and went straight back to sleep. luckily she heard the alarm and woke up. otherwise she would have missed her flight and bad things happen when ppl miss flights. felt sad when i went back home without her.. suddenly missed her alot and wished she didnt have to go. well consolation is it's only gonna be for 3 days. short trip. she'll be back on tues and im looking forward to picking her up at the airport.

posted by bvqeblf @ 11:28 PM

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7-May 1015 CX736, i'll be going to HK for work again.

9-May 1955 CX711, coming back to SG.

but this time will be without him sending me off

and without him picking me up at the airport...